Friday, April 21, 2006

i fall to pieces

still having the hyper brain/tired body thing going on. and i was a little down yesterday because once again, i feel a little behind on every aspect of life and I CAN'T KEEP THE HOUSE CLEAN. and i get so exhausted trying.

i try to engage rory, alix and brian in the cleaning process, but you know, they are 4, not quite 2, and a 50 year old guy, respectively.

last night, i was going to bake a cake to bring to dinner tonight at mike and laurie's house. i love my cooking and baking-it's creative and it relaxes me.

but instead of cleaning or baking, i said 'fuck it all!'* and went to bed at 8:30. i was really tired.

in other news...started a new knitting project this week , because i'm bored of the others right now and i'm contemplating starting yet another this weekend. you know, so i have lots of projects to choose from and lots of projects to get frustrated about that i haven't finished.

i am seriously considering upping my meds.

whew, this is a really cheery post, isn't it? better quit now.

* 'all' being the messes, not the members of my little nuclear family whom i love very much.

Friday, April 14, 2006

rest in peace

"Patriotism at the expense of another nation is as wicked as racism at the expense of another race. Let us resolve to be patriots always, nationalists never. Let us love our country, but pledge allegiance to the earth and to the flora and fauna and human life that it supports — one planet indivisible, with clean air, soil and water; with liberty, justice and peace for all."

William Sloane Coffin, 1924-2006

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

buzz buzz buzz in the drum of the ear

i've been composing a bunch of stuff in my head lately, but not committing it to blog.

i seem to be in this really strange tired and bored and at the same time kinda amped space right now. i want to do a million things or run with a million ideas that are in my brain, but when i actually think about doing it i feel kinda "ehh".

i want to write, i want to read, i want to knit, i want to run, i want to cook but none of those things which i normally enjoy doing seem terribly exciting or interesting. this may be the end of winter, but not quite yet spring blahs that seem to happen to a lot of people around these parts.

so, blah.

i'll just take it a little at a time and see what i can give you. and not leave you with radio silence for too long anymore.